The start of the new year is normally always exciting and a welcome. For one, and most importantly, my son was born on January 4th so we get to celebrate that. Secondly, the new year brings with it a fresh start. Unfortunately, this year it also brought some sadness. On Jan 3rd I was forced to make the difficult decision to put down our wonderful caramel.
Caramel was 13yrs old… I was completely gutted. I feel some guilt that maybe had I acted quicker things would have been different but the doctor says that would not have been the case. For about a week prior I noticed that caramel was drinking a ton of water and also urinating a ton as well. I didn’t make much of it because she was still eating. Over the last weekend of December though I noticed she wasn’t eating any more and for a couple days I tried in vain to force feed her watered down food through a syringe. When I didn’t see any improvement I took her to the vet only to hear the bad news. According to the doctor in all likelihood she had kidney failure and she didn’t even recommend trying anything as she was too far gone. Caramel’s temperature was very low which indicated she was close to the end. Running tests and giving her meds would only prolong the inevitable and the humane thing to do was to put her down It was devastating to hear. My daughter was with me balling and I had to avoid looking at her as I didn’t want to break down in front of the doctor. We were given some time with caramel and then she was taken away.
She is missed dearly. I can see that Clementine too misses caramel.
Last night I listened to this podcast and it just broke my heart. In the end Joan was just looking to be loved. I commented to a colleague about how much tragedy has come out of the WWE and in listening to this u come to understand and realize why. The McMahon’s. I am not surprised at all that Tripe H is involved as well. That Chyna’s downward spiral involved him. I don’t know the guy but he comes across as a real asshole. A lifetime ago I got to see Chyna at my local gym. Triple H was there too and she was pretty much glued to him… I wanted to so badly approach her for a picture but didn’t because of him. He came across as so unapproachable that I figured he’d just embarrass me…What a presence she had though. I was completely infatuated with her. And to watch her evolve in WWE was awesome ! Yes, she was a pioneer, a ground breaker of barriers. To listen to Vince Russo talk about the McMahon’s as being users and abusers is not surprising.. through gym life I got to see and meet some wrestlers when they came to Montreal… some were unapproachable, some weren’t… Razor Ramon, Warlord were guys I was able to have conversations with… and there was never anything good to say about Vince McMahon. A Tyrant.
Russo mentioned the many times Joan was out of it and as I mentioned in my earlier post… a few weeks back on twitter I felt that too.. she was putting out tweets that were incoherent.. I think to the point where fans were concerned so she tweeted a reassuring tweet that she was ‘ok’..she clearly wasn’t.
It’s very sad that Chyna left us and was not able to get that closure she certainly deserved.
A few months back, Hazel our 2nd oldest cat (5 years old), started to lose weight. The weight loss was very noticeable but at the time I thought it had to do with the fact I had changed their diet… as both Caramel and Hazel were really hefty… However, as time went on I noticed she was also getting lethargic… was keeping to herself, would stay in our bedroom closet for hours on end. I knew something was up so I brought her to the vet. The news wasn’t good. She had water in her lungs and what looked to be a tumor. The doctor actually wanted me to put down that night. I refused and asked how long hazel had. Not long. That was 2 months ago. During these 2 months we tried our best to keep her comfortable.. brought her food and water.. she didn’t eat much but she drank quite a bit.
On monday night after dinner I was watching TV when I started to hear a feint meowing coming from the basement. I knew it was happening… that she was dying… it was so difficult to see her struggle. she was gasping for air, meowing and trembling. It was very difficult to watch. I am 44 and I can honestly say that in all these years on earth I have never witnessed a death. I just held her and stroked her until she passed on. RIP our beloved hazel.